me: do i want this book? i kind of really want it loh: that's the twilight thing? i never read that... me: don't. you won't like it...it's this obsessive love story that all 14 year olds love..and me -begins to walk away- -runs back- me: wait wait...maybe i want it... loh: is there only one? me: no, it's a series, i think they only have this hard copy here though -loh picks up book- loh: it's hard bound, comes with a ribbon bookmark and original artwork..... me: oooh loh:...it looks pretty lame drea.
Hahaha! love it. thanks loh, for keepin it real. :p
i'd love to blog about twilight, how robert pattinson and i are meant to be and how free food can always make my day. i'd like to blog about something nice and light for once...but alas, the gods are against me.
the very foundations of my life are crumbling apart right when i need things to get okay. i'm so close to really living on my own, starting my career, and really...starting my life. life that has no set rules and no set direction.
and right when i need everything to be okay, everything's fallen apart. to the point that i don't know if i'm going to be able to make it back to the states alright. and while i've worked so hard to get where i am, and how i so badly want to inherit my planned lifestyle...i'd only feel incredibly selfish if i didn't give it away, given the state that things are right now.
every day since october 31, i've died a little bit inside. and i really don't know if i can take much more of this...i've really tried my best to be humble. and i continue to try my best to be patient. but it seems like nothing is working. i really wish i were more like my grandmother. she's one of the strongest people i know. she's made the most of her life, despite her very humble beginnings and the discrimination she had to deal with. she's still so full of life and sunshine that it's intoxicating when she's around. i imagine that whatever i'm going through pales in comparison what her life experiences. but at the same time, i imagine that my heart just isn't as big as hers..and it's not big enough to handle this.
the one good thing about america is that it makes you very good at acting. the place trains you to act like everything's perfectly fine, because at the end of the day, no one really wants to hear about it. everyone has a cross to bear. deal with it. deal with it on your time, because when you're out in society, you need to act a certain way and speak a certain way. i think that's probably why a lot of americans are really messed up. they're not very emotional for such a long time that when something finally hits them, no matter if it's a break up, an email, or a conversation, it makes such a inexplicable impact that a switch goes off - and they dont know how to handle it. and to makes matter worse, most don't have a religion to turn to. it's easy to say God is testing me, or this struggling will be rewarded in the future. but when you have no hope or faith in something bigger or meaningful, then what's the point?
i wish i could fix everything. but i can't. although i'm trying..and but it seems like my trying is going unnoticed and major decisions are being made without considering my part in it. I don't want to be selfish and choose my life over everyone else's but goddammit, IM STILL HERE. and sometimes, i get tired too. and i don't want to feel like my efforts are in vain.
tomorrow i'm going to wake up, maybe shop, and smile at the world. because that's what i'm supposed to do. because i hate appearing to be weak and dependent. and because i don't know any other way to cope with this.
1. if mccain-palin win the US elections, i'm moving back home. fuck. that. :p
2. i'm going to italy! bye friends!! i'll be back on the 22nd. but i leave for singapore on the 25th. -_- so i'm back back by the 28th. :D see you then!
And we both know, you're wrong There's nothing you can do, to ever undo what you've done to me I loved you, deep in my heart I know you couldn't love me But baby I just kept holding on, I shoulda let you go Shoulda let you go
aaand I have no phone again! But I will soon! like, today hahaha. but yes. Looking forward to seeing all of you and BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TINA!!!! I would make it bigger and flashier, but i've completely forgotten how to do html and im too lazy to look it up. ^^'
I just got back from new york. I went to watch my dad run the new york marathon. He made it! He ran 26.2 miles, starting from Staten Island and ending up in Central Park. I'm so proud of him!.. so I thought I'd share. haha. Yay daddy!
His quote for the event? "You know dear, if you ever date anyone I don't like, I can literally outrun him."
..Thanks dad. haha! Pictures to follow! (if i ever remember)
PS: I want to work in New York at some point in my life. Tis an amazing city. :D
so i'm trying to finish my take-home midterm, you see, and there's this one number where I had to explain my answer. I was flipping through my notes and I thought I saw something that made my answer wrong, so I erased my entire paragraph. When I double checked in the book (it's an open book midterm), I saw that my original answer was right, so instinctively, I held my pinky finger down and "clicked" with my ring finger where a "Z" could have been.
And then I realized I was writing it all out by hand and there is no "undo" button for erasures. -_-
[X] Took home my IW [X] Submitted all IWs on the 3rd Friday [X] Cheated in a test [ ] Got caught cheating [X] Texted in class [X] Brought cellphone to school [X] Creatively hid cellphone during inspection [ ] Used the same issue of Didache for 1 whole year [ ] Used someone else's Didache for 1 whole year [ ] Got an E in at least one of Mrs. Borja's reflection papers [ ] Had an egg baby that lived till the end of the project period [ ] Had accessories for your egg baby - im a lame mother.. [X] Named an actor as the father of your baby - hahaha! vic zhou!! [ ] Named a boyfriend or actual person as the father of your baby [ ] Outstanding Student [ ] Excellence in any subject [ ] Excellence in your chosen elective - wahaha! accounting.. :p [ ] Can still recall any maxim that isn't “Piensa con frecuencia en el valor del tiempo.” [X] Actually read the text of Ibong Adarna - in english [X] Actually read the text of Florante & Laura - actually, i read all of them in english [X] Actually read the text of Noli Me Tangere [ ] Actually read the text of El Filibusterismo - except this one.. -_- [X] Borrowed a lab gown from someone in another class [X] Borrowed a lab gown from someone in another class without their knowing - unlocked lockers beware [ ] Failed a subject [ ] Took summer classes [X] Studied for a test the day of the test [X] Did not study at all for a test [X] Was ever a part of MTAP - grade 7. hahaha! [X] Slept in class - during filipino and THE [ ] Slept in the AVR [ ] Slept in the MPR [ ] Slept in the Little Theater [ ] Faked dysmenorrhea to nap in the clinic [X] Had someone else do your THE project/s for you - hi tina! [X] Seriously studied for Lab, Computer, or PE finals - LAB! and the stations.. [ ] Borrowed someone else's recorder for music [X] Killed time in the library during IW [X] Cut class [X] Pretended to have a problem to play hooky in the guidance office [X] Got caught cutting class -IW actually.. by sir gary :p [ ] Had more than 10 tardies [ ] Ever had to talk to a teacher in the “conversation rooms" [ ] Was a class officer [X] Was a club officer [ ] Got to school before 6am to cram for a project [X] Left school past 8pm cramming for a project
Fun Stuff
[ ] Had a Space Maker [ ] Used a Jansport backpack [X] Had a class jacket [ ] Collected Lisa Frank [ ] Was in the “Unicorn Club" [ ] Was in the “Stamp Club" [X] Loved the Spice Girls [X] Loved the Backstreet Boys [X] Loved the Moffatts [ ] Loved Hanson [ ] Threw staples in my gradeschool Spanish teacher's afro! [ ] Ever sang “Count the nunal of Ms. Donato" [ ] Played piko [X] Played patintero [ ] Played in the batch vs. batch patintero [ ] Played Chinese garter [ ] Wore shorts under my skirt so I could play Chinese garter properly [ ] Took ballet in the Shirley Halili-Cruz School of Ballet [ ] Took gymnastics with Teacher Weena [X] “Forgot" my PE uniform at home [X] Actually forgot my PE uniform at home [ ] Was part of the group who turned the bathroom into “The Lounge" [ ] Vandalized the bathroom doors in 2nd year [ ] Had a Bakal Boy [X] Made takas to Galle [X] Made takas to Galle to meet up with boys - actually.. i cant remember.. maybe? [ ] Had a prom date who was the fruit of the Xavier-Poveda interaction [ ] Still friends with the Xavierians I met at the interaction [ ] Was a facilitator at the interaction [ ] Got jailed at any Poveda fair [ ] Went to the LaSalle Fair [ ] Went to the Ateneo Fair [X] Went to the Xavier Fair [ ] Plucked someone's eyebrows in class/between classes [ ] Had your eyebrows plucked in class/between classes [ ] Made friendship bracelets in class [ ] Had a kikay kit [ ] Danced during any assembly [X] Sang during any assembly - thoughts of your love... [ ] Led prayer at Monday general assembly [X] Sang the National Anthem at Monday general assembly [X] Had a band [X] Performed at the fair [ ] Ate De Jesus fried chicken for recess AND lunch [ ] Ate De Jesus fried chicken with ketchup [ ] Ate De Jesus fried chicken with gravy [ ] T-Bone [X] Blue Marlin [ ] Blue & Gold mami [X] Mexican rice bowl [ ] Lumpia from the De Jesus canteen [ ] Strawberries and cream from the De Jesus canteen [X] Peanutbutter bars from the Pastry Cart [ ] BEGG sandwich [X] Waited at least 20 minutes just to get food from the Jap food stall [X] Had a close encounter with Ms. Henny (from under the stairs) [X] Ate at the covered walk (when there were no tables yet) [ ] Went shopping at the Lost and Found [X] Cried like crazy at all retreats [ ] Snuck in contraband stuff during the retreat [ ] Got a special palanca from a special boy [X] Took pictures with Mang Baguio at graduation
You should add [X] copied someone else's IW card [X] brought home math IWs [X] ate in class [ ] won ms JAZZ's chemistry contest [ ] won the sabayang pagbigkas [ ] requested a song during valentines [X] made a teacher cry [X] went to galle in type C [ ] double layer of underwear for csdc inspection [X] ate tocino and egg in the pav [X] stuck a copy of the class sched on their desk [ ] had food brought to school for their birthday [ ] had a gate pass [X] gave teachers gifts - </i>during christmas..</i> [ ] sold stuff in school [ ] bought from people who sold stuff in school [ ] actually wore the poveda SOCKS and rubbershoes [ ] had a yahoo group just for IWs!! [ ] have a classmate go in through the window to unlock the doors after lunch --------------- *sigh*.. i want the school year to be over. I want to start my internship and then go home and be done with it...
How is it that I manage to make 33,000 dollars one day and then lose 146,000 two days later on the SAME STOCK.
:(
See, I'm playing this game for class where we get 500,000 dollars-worth of play money to invest in the stock market.. or bond market...er, the market generally. The beauty of this game is that you can trade real time, so you see what you would have actually made or lost had you 500,000 dollars to do whatever you wanted with.
and APPARENTLY, it's not the best of ideas to let ME have it. hahaha! dammit. freaking google.
If you've seen MTV Cribs (which I'm sure you have) here's a clip of what one of the dorms looks like. PS: Not all santa clara kids act that way..i promise. :p But yeah, wait for most of it to load cos it's a lot funnier that way.
i hate hate hate the sound that the subwoofer or bass speaker or WHATEVER THE HELL THAT IS, makes when the neighbor's music is TOO LOUD.
granted, i am one of those people who listen to obnoxiously loud music but i have NEVER had a complaint about my neighbors for being too noisy. asw;eoijffwajf;woeijf!!!!
My parents have recently discovered the wonder that is known as "double-sided tape" (courtesty of moi) and they're so aliw with it. -_-'
Me: "Here, I'll put the tag on na" Mom: "No, wait!! Here..use the double-sided tape" -____-
In other news, Mike has come and gone..for those of you who don't know, Mike's my friend from SCU who was studying abroad in China for the past 5 months. I made him drop by and visit for a few days before going back to the states. hurrah.
I've realized that I'm not made for this "going out every night" business. Unless "going out" will translate to "watching a movie" or "meeting for dessert." I'm much too lazy to do anything more strenuous than that. how sad. -_- I feel so old!! I remember in 7th grade when everyone would plan to get together at 10am to hang out and go rollerblading..and everyone would get mad at me because regardless of the set time to meet, I'd always show up at 2pm.-_-' Then our gimmicks would go on and on until dinner...past dinner...oooh..it's 10pm. and THEN we'd go home. what happeneeeed??
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